Delirium overwhelmed me. Consequently, forming a barrier in my cerebral nerves which prevents me from having a crystal clear mind. That would pretty much explain the results that I am going to receive for my EL Paper 1. I'm such a failure; not only did I screw up this paper, but also for my EL Paper 2. The dam in my eyes have yet to unleash the strong currents that will tear apart my sore conscience. I'm staying strong, I'm trying my very best to but I guess I'm facing another breakdown later on. Ironically, I have done a lot of practices for English - figuratively by having 'home-exams'. However, I can't help but feel so distraught when I was unable to churn out those ideas(with the flow I always had) during school exams. I guess, my brains work best in the afternoon. Oh great, I don't know why but I'm drenched in hopelessness. It's like the future is a dark abyss which everyone is simply unaware of the dangers and 'the unexpected' lurking. Holding firm to my word, I will stay optimistic and yes, I will. Hope is all I have while time continues to crawl by. Let time be my ally while I pound myself with mock examinations and another round of thorough revision  as so to ensure that 'O's will have a pleasure disposition when it arrives. Ya Allah s.w.t., berikanlah ku kesemangatan untuk menghadapi segala cabaran dalam hidup dan berikan ku petunjuk apabila ku tersilap langkah. Amin. 

I leave the rest up to you, God. It's all in your hands.